I hope you are all doing great! I am still planning to have my surgery on Wednesday, February 26th at H.U.P. Not sure what the time of my surgery will be yet. They don't tell you until the day before. (!!!!) My sisters Lisa, Trudy, & Gretchen will be there as well as my niece Kat and my friend Shay....and Chip, most likely. Not sure what we're doing with Eli yet....I'll be getting that double-whopper double mastectomy w/reconstruction (saline implants) and bilateral salpingo-oophorectomy (both ovaries and both Fallopian tubes will be removed.) I have an 85% chance of developing breast cancer again and a 20% chance of developing ovarian cancer, so even though I just finished chemo, I want to get this done a.s.a.p. I'm sure I'll be fine but I am scared, scared, scared.
I have been soooo crabby and depressed lately, very on edge, cranky, and still very tired! I thought after chemo I would bounce right back but no....my body is still getting over that chemical shock, that was needed to kill the evil cancer cells. On good days I take a shower and brush my teeth. On really good days I read to Eli and do the dishes too. On really, really good days I do all that plus teach kindergarten and maybe write a thank you note or a thank you text. The stress has been getting to me, thought I'm trying to fight that. Watching the news and what's going on in the world helps me to be so grateful for being who I am and where I am in time...everything I am or have is a blessing....a gift from God...please forgive me if I am crabby towards you. I just have so much on my mind and it gets to me, especially with all the s!@#$%^ snowstorms we've been having. Not being able to see the sun is hard....Don't we all need the sun? But thank you for your patience with me, everyone, you have all been so good to me! Sometimes I have to just take it one hour to the next.
Anyway of course snow's predicted for my day of surgery so we're gonna have to do some creative planning!
Here's my surgical team. Tchou/Wu/Burger:
These doctors are amazing. I am so privileged they will be taking care of me.
"Praise the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits-- who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion." Psalm 103:2-4
Okay Good Buddy, 10-4 - Over and out......Love, Annie
I'll be there all prayed up for you....I love you Annie and it's an honor to walk this journey alongside of you.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts and prayers are with you! Can't wait to see you:-) XOXO Sheri
ReplyDeleteWishing you a quick & complete recovery! It is wonderful that your sisters are coming in.
ReplyDeleteAnnie, you've been on my mind constantly for the past few days: I totally empathize with the wave of emotions as surgery approaches (since I had the same before mine). Fear, gratitude, a desire to get it all behind you, etc. -- it's a potent cocktail. Know that Drew and I are thinking of you with SO much love and that everything will be A-OK! We can do this cancer-busting thing, you and I. We ARE doing it, a step at a time. Go kick some butt tomorrow!! XOXOX Judy
ReplyDeleteAnnie, thank goodness for blogs and email, I can't tell that you're crabby or cranky. Seriously, you're entitled to be a bit crabby and cranky, you've been through so much and aren't done yet. You're on the road to recovery and doing a great job of fighting this ugly cancer. Praying for you and your doctors. XOXOX Carroll
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