The Waiting Game

Waiting on a treatment for cancer is tricky; It's hard to be happy or sad. Waiting on the BRCA genetic test that will determine if I am predispositioned to getting more cancer in my future.....waiting to get a second opinion....waiting to see what operation I will get and when. Then what else...radiation? Chemo? Meanwhile the cancer lingers in my body, a small but mean posse of cells, an enemy inside of me. This photo of our family was taken last weekend at our pastor's cabin. It was really good to get away, breathe in the fresh air, sleep with the cold air coming through the open window, listen to the birds, drink my morning coffee by the fire. Once in awhile I do enough fun stuff to forget about the cancer, and then it pops into my mind again, reminding me not to be too happy or too sad...just wait for the next thing...