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Hi, Everyone,

It's very hard for me to blog tonight. I never thought this fight would be so hard, and dang, it's just starting. Chemo is whipping my arse royally and it's only Round One. Uggh...I have never been so dang tired in my whole entire lifetime. Last night I was literally too tired to sleep. How does that happen? I do not know. I can't even explain it. All I know is I will need you angels to help me these next four months because I don't know how I am going to get through...I really don't. Thank you for all the cute cards, texts, e-mails, voice mails and PRAYERS - I can't always say thank you but I do get them and I love getting them all. They really keep me going...

I was not too bad last week right after chemo, but then, I was also on steroids for a few days post-chemo, until they stopped.... I was a little tired and feeling nauseous the next days right after the chemo, but not too bad......BUT then just like the nurse said I would, "Wham!" I "hit a brick wall" on the weekend - starting on Saturday. Kinda reminds me of the time I was sledding as a kid, down the steep sidewalk in front of our house on Stout Road  and  I hit a parked car with my face. Only worse. I was too fatigued to even put on my fatigues for this period of fatigue!

Angel Trudy came over today, bless her beautiful face, and she was awesome. She cleaned up around my exhausted body as I lay sprawled on the couch, the house in total disarray and full of Legos. She really spiffed up the joint and made me some yummy sandwiches and planted mums. She stopped by a few stores on the way to pick me up some stuff. She ironed, dusted, cleaned out the hamster cage - yes she did that for me - she sorted, vacuumed...she was such a huge help. Thank you sister, Gert! You look so hot in these photos, do you know that? Lovin' the Audrey Hepburn shades!

 

     

                

 

 

She came, she saw, she conquered. And she even made me drink my water. In all this world there is nothing  - NO THING -  like a sister!

 

Please keep Chip and Eli in your prayers as well as me. We all need prayers, not just me. This is a family disease...it is subtle and we need to remain solid as a family.

 

Next chemo dates are Wed. 10/30., Wed. 11/13, and Wed. 11/27. Can't wait for that!

 

I love you all! Annie

 

Romans 5:3-4  tells me, 

"More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope..."

I guess I thought I was already a character but I guess I thought wrong! At last I'll have hope...eventually.....!